So a lot has happened in the last few weeks...I went to see the new facility in the Mid-west. I liked the city. It wasn't that different from where I am now. I think they are a very motivated community with a lot of great things happening for them. The gay bar was fun and the people were friendly and welcoming.
I stand by my original statements: I think it would be a phenomenal opportunity. It would rip my entire world apart...and that's not necessarily a bad thing, given my longing for an adventure. E! has been impossible about the whole thing...for good reason, he doesn't want me to leave.
Based on everything I was seeing, and how excited I was about the opportunity, I was planning to take the offer and transfer to the Mid-west.
...and then this morning happened...I was accepted to grad school.
I'm having a hard time celebrating. Why? I've been making all my decisions with the idea that I wouldn't find out in time for it to be a factor or that I wouldn't get in. And if I did get in and find out after the decisions about the Mid-West were made, then I would defer for a while.
Now I have more decisions to make. I should be happy about all these wonderful choices in front of me. I should be. Part of me is grieving the loss of my adventure...part of me is grieving not choosing grad school...
I'm grieving the other choice. Isn't that silly??
That's the crux of paths...when you choose one, you have to be ok with the possibility that the other choice may never present itself again. I'm greedy, what can I say.
I think the decision comes down to a long-term strategic decision and a short-term tactical decision. Grad school is long term; it gives me the degree needed to eventually have my own practice/be self-employed. The Mid-west is a short term, tactical thing to assuage my boredom; what will I do next, who knows? The good thing is that either is a good choice. In either situation, I will be successful. (Plus, with grad school, I will take a new role and that will be an adventure too...smaller scale, but still).
I have 12 hours to make my decision unfortunately.
Laterz...
Comments (5)
At least you have choices =) Good luck with your decision. Man that's a short time to decide.
Oh wow...I don't envy you having to decide like this. Who'd have thought you'd have both hit you at once? Whichever you chose, just look at yourself in the mirror and say, "Yes. This is what I want."
Congrats on the grad school acceptance. It's definitely hard to have a life when major decisions like that are to be made. I recall being in grad school and working and thinking why can't I have a relationship and work out too! There just aren't enough hours in the day.
Whatever decision you make will be the right one. Good luck!
I abandoned my grad school program. It just didn't seem to be what it promised. The thought of another master's is just too much right now. But did you decide? Should I take it from your silent blog that you didnt? heh.